Finding Wisdom (part 2)

Last time I left off after having learned a powerful truth about my life. I had realized, through Health Realization, that my life was my own to create. I had been made aware of the awesome power of thought through my understanding of Health Realization. For me, and I think many people, simply being aware was not enough. I had to learn more. I also found myself incredulous that more people weren't or didn't want to be made aware of this amazing truth. To learn more I studied under various "experts" in the field. I studied or learned under names like George Pransky, Sandy Krot, Judy Sedgeman, Ken Manning, Ed Lemon, Jack Pransky and many more. Each of them walked with me on my path of realization and watched my knowledge grow. Concurrent with my growing knowledge I also saw improvements in my life. My personal life improved through improved relationships with my wife, children and close relatives. My professional relationship improved. I stopped feeling the same level of anxiety while at work or in professional situations. However, there were cracks in the foundation.

Unbeknownst to me, over time, I had made Health Realization something that it was never meant to be. Most people get what they can from Health Realization and then go live happy healthy lives. I made the mistake of taking it a step or two further. I made Health Realization the yardstick by which I measured everything. If someone or something didn't meet my measure of truth then they weren't up to standard. There is a funny thing about setting your own standard and then measuring people by that standard. You and you alone determine who measures up. Foolishly, I set up the system so that almost no one did measure up. My internal compass was set to such an extreme that even I wasn't able to follow it. I found people, experiences and things not measuring up to my impossible standard.

Lucky for me I have an understanding and wise partner in life. This would not be the first time that she would rescue me from myself. I am thankful that with wise counsel I was able to see the folly of my ways. I was able to see that I had ceased to use my understanding as a way to make sense out of life and had instead used it as a way to control my life. I had chosen to live my life inside my head and outside of the world. As I said, luckily I caught myself before the spiral had gotten too far out of control.

It is funny to get rescued from yourself. For me, being caught up in myself has made it somehow easy and yet difficult to resolve the "hard" questions in my life. In my heart I know that my hard questions are hard solely because I make them so. I know that fearful things are fearful only because I chose to make them so. I know that peace, love and joy are my birthright and it is my choice that makes me so. My question for my next post, which I have been asked by so many others but am asking myself now, is how?